god its great to write again! somehow its something else here as if you write it by pen, not sure why.

still to much english going on in my head, my spelling is probably aweful though. one thing is that i haven't been writing english for ages, or at least, nobody was correcting it for ages, and the other thing, i learned quite a lot just cause of talking, and who knows how to write an english word just because you heard it? and i just heard australian english too, and everybody who's been to australia knows that this is far far away from oxford school english. 

most of the time my head is switching between english and german anyway, but thats rather annoying than useful, and it sounds stupid if you start using ords like "mobiltelefon" just because you're always already at "mob" when you realize that its "handy" in german and its to late then.

so much confuzed stuff in my head. not knowing what to think, what to do or what to want is stressful! i'm a mess.